It's Been A While

It's been a while since I have written anything.  I've bee  feeling the need lately to start writting again just to get feelings off my chest and out of my head.  Over the next couple of days or so I'm gonna try to sit down and put it all into words.  Purge my soul and mind.

Helen 

The Question I Hate To Hear

I hate going somewhere and somebody asking, "do you have kids?"  The answer to that is always no.  Usually that's followed by either "do you not want/like kids" or "well as much as you travel that's a good thing" or "when are you going to have them".  As if it really is most of these people busy to be so damn nosey.  It's always a bit hard not to get emotional or hateful in response to those people.  I had a lady I work with several months back ask if I had little ones and I told her no and her response to that was "well that's good with as much as you work and are gone all the time".  First off I felt tha was kinda rude.  Secondly, why would you say something like that to someone you don't know outside of the random work encounter.  She ment well but still, it hurt.  The latest person that asked me why I didn't have little ones was my aunt over the 4th of July weekend.  Bless her heart she has always been one of my favorite relatives and it hurt her when I looked at her and said I can't.  The look on her face was one of pain and she really didn't know what to say.  She has always been an aunt that would have taken me as her own child.  Telling her that I can't have children was almost as hard as telling my own mother and I think it probably hurt her almost as it did my mom.  I just wish when people would ask someone if they have children they would take moment to think about their response because maybe that woman does want kids and doesnt want to hear the general response.

Hello

I've been wanting to do this for a while, start a blog.  I know that this can be a very touchy subject and a subject that most people never think about unless they have been through it or know someone close to them that has.  I fall into both catagories.  I invite everyone that has had issues or know someone who has to drop by and talk a bit.  I am hoping through this that I can get out feelings that I have had and do have.  I don't want to offend anyone or upset anyone but I know it's bound to happen.